Tuesday, November 28, 2000
I was feeling a bit poorly today. Wouldn't ya know it, not a soul around to run down to the corner drug store to get me a lemon coke with plenty of chipped ice. (*sigh)
I passed the day in a Niquel induced haze working in some Christmasy images. Beat up, formerly whimsical Christmas ornaments are so unappealing. I finally got around to adding links to some of my favorite people, Chad and Jonno mainly. They always knock me out.
Oh a pointer, something from Heloise: Take a shave when you are feeling under the weather, it is truly miraculous, a real picker upper.
7:41 PM :

Monday, November 27, 2000
Jonno is so inspirational. I nearly went through the roof after reading her dismissive response to a very worthwhile cause.Please take one day and participate, tell your story, I know I will!
It has touched everyone but not until you are an aged senior citizen should you know what it means to lose friends, family, acquaintances, and so forth. No one should know what it means to be a young man and know what losing a whole part of a generation means. I believe I am a successful gay man because I survived the 80s, I survived Reagen/Bush, two Presidents that were so out of touch with people that AIDS was barely mentioned during their individual presidencies, when it was ravaging this world, it was mentioned once. I am mad as hell that the legacy of Reagen and Bush, namely George W is coming back, that people have forgotten! It sickens me that people would cast a vote for such an elitist rich jackass and how disappointed I am that there can be such blind ignorance in this world. One thing for certain is that I will never forget, ever. To criticize a day without weblogs is to ignore the intrinsic value in a small and observant cause. Yes it does mimic a 'day without art'. I understand that 'a day without art' is a campaign to observe National AIDS day, to honor the artists, performers, writers who have died of AIDS. To symbolize that the world is void of something each time an artist passes away. We all got that concept and we are aware of our loss. What event then, stands for the people who were just everyday heroes? Sons, Fathers, Brothers, Sisters, Mothers, talented and not so talented, all missed dearly, all longed for daily, their contribution, gone, wiped out! Who speaks for those people who now seem so forgotten. Do you? Do you remember? Any 'event' that forces meditation, reflection about AIDS and what it means is worthwhile, whether or not its deemed a 'bad idea' or a 'pr' event. If one person thinks for one moment about AIDS, then it is worthwhile, if it enters the mind of one person and makes them stop and think then it is a success, if the concept makes you squirm and feel uncomfortable then it is worthwhile. I understand that people would rather be hip and cynical. It is uncool to think of a disease so awful that it is so unfathomable, to think of a person losing their life in such a horrible and deteriorating manner, defenseless and often without hope. Who gives them hope that they will live on and that we will fight on? Do you? Who wants to be confronted with such a topic, it only happens to faggots, drug addicts, minorities, ricans, blacks, women, and children. If it happened to the president, if it ran through Congress or the House, then it would be a different story. THEN it would be of 'national concern' THEN of course people would not have forgotten so easily and brushed aside. To let a Bush back into the Oval Office, someone who is about as bright as a small appliance light bulb is atrocious. Of course, AIDS isn't IN this year, its not cool, it's is no longer the cause de jour, it's a ploy they tell you, a media event, don't letum kid you. Don't buy into the fodder, as it was real, it is STILL real. It's uncomfortable to face the concept of AIDS, it causes us to examine our prejudices, but we must, it is imperative! We must fight to remember the people, the real live people who we all lost to this horrible disease. We must all tell our stories and it's important to do so, to be brave and look the dark bastard in the face and confront this horrible disease. Don't ever let anyone tell you it doesn't matter, that it isn't important, it is. We must always fight and we must always remember. Any act, big or small, do your part, tell your story and remember those who have passed.

7:26 PM :